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Monday, January 28, 2008

Valentine's Day is coming and so is our Anniversary. I've decided to break down Jansen's birthday plans and put some of the ideas into the events mentioned above.

So i booked a Glazzhaus room at the Gallery Hotel for our Anniversary and seats for high tea at the Rose Varenda. As for Valentine's day, I just made reservations at Shin Kushiya for Valentine's.

Now here is the problem.... I want to get the F200 for Jansen but should it be an Anniversary present or a Valentine's one? I want to get him the phone asap as he really needs a non camera phone due to his job constraints. His current non camera phone is really wearing out. So if i get him the phone for Valentine's, what am I going to give him for our Anniversary?

Valentine's...mm, brings back memories....I'll not going to mention it here though...

My Dreams....POOF!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

IM GETTING A SECOND

WEST HIGHLAND WHITE TERRIER!!!

I feel so happy!!! Our baby boy will most likely be introduced after Chinese New Year and he's Australian too!!! We decided to get another Westie from the same country as where Jannie came from. Im so EXCITED!!!

I hope Jannie will be happy as well, it'll be her husband for life. I hope he's handsome too. I simply can't wait. The troublesome thing, I have to train him all from the start, i hope he's a fast learner just like my beloved Jannie. Well, haha IM EXCITED!

My Dreams....POOF!

Monday, January 21, 2008

2008

2007

Someone whom i trust, someone whom i truly call my Best Friend

Love our gossip sessions over coffee

Addicted to our clubbing and pubbing sessions (you suck at alcohol games though)

'Adore' our South Beach Diet Scheme (i don't like carbs now but i still want chocolates!)

Going to enjoy our gyming sessions (i dislike california fitness and im glad to join you at planet fitness)

Thank you for the 12 years of friendship so far, if there's eternity in reality, i would want an eternal friendship with you...

My Dreams....POOF!

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Headed down to the Singapore Expo today. There was a SKC Dog Show being held over there. The ambience was really different from what i could remember, the last time i attended a dog show was hmm, lets see, 13 years ago? I participated in some junior competition with my late Westie, it was held in the old World Trade Centre, if i could remember, it was much bigger. But nonetheless i had my fair share of fun. Met Michele and Macey, her beloved 5K plus pedigree husky -_-. It was Macey's first time competing. Met Nicole, her hubby and Skippy and then Reina, Matthew and Muffyne before i left.

Jansen and i were talking about certain matters while we made our way back home, we were thinking of getting our own car by the end of this year, we figured that we would save alot, as we cab around frequently. We also would like to get Jannie a spouse but this time we would import one from UK or maybe Australia again.

Attended Jansen's friend's wedding last night, the worst part was Jansen and I were being appointed as EMCEES for the night, given like maybe half a day notice. I freaked out! Why? I had to speak CHINESE! I stammered during one of my lines but it was great experience, i enjoyed myself and i felt appreciated when the bride and groom said their thanks. I loved my hair last night but well didn't have the time to take pictues, i didn't even have time to sink my teeth into the food. But well, anything to please him. I swear i'll make that newly wed couple Emcees for my wedding!

Anyway, its a brand new week again and Im not really looking forward to it. Thats all for now, enjoy the pictures.

My Dreams....POOF!

Thursday, January 17, 2008

This was taken on New Years itself, went to Wenny's place where the rest of us gathered for some quiet time. Its my current favourite picture of my snow cone so far =)

Anyway, i finally did my brizilian wax plus my underarms! I haven't done it for ages as i was really really busy, its actually rather addictive despite the pain, i don't believe in shaving haha. Now i feel so clean! Anyway shall not discuss more about that over here, not really a suitable topic.

Heading to the Grand Hyatt later, Mum wants to treat Jansen to a meal as he found a better job, sometimes i wonder whether im her biological daughter or he is -_-, she never treats me to a meal regardless of the occasion heh. I'll upload pictures later if there'll be any =)

My Dreams....POOF!

Monday, January 14, 2008

Came across a few random blogs today. Found something very common among the blogs i read. By ordinary, majority would say love is unconditional or love is genuine. When things are made in an absolute manner, why do people still yammer or wail over petty issues in a relationship.

When you say, 'we're born to love the imperfect' or 'no one is born perfect', are you able to penetrate or comprehend such phrases. Or is this something depthless? Or you came across this in a fictional book or a movie you just watched and you decided to just say this to some you claim you love because it sounds oh so luscious.

As you walk down a long road of events filled with priceless experiences, do you actually forget the person you apparently fell in love with as you try so so hard to change whatever you thought was imperfect about him/her.

We all live in a mundane wourld filled with love, hate, sorrow, joy. Do we actually have the heart embrace everything that is thrown to us?

I am a victim of such, I take thing for granted as time passes, I expect more and more at each stage of satisfaction maybe because i thought I gave in a little too much thus I hunger for more to be given to me. I throw petty little tantrums when I don't get that amount of attention or the things I want. I find it hard to understand love maybe because I think too much. When I apologise, its already too late as I do not have the power to turn back time. 'Sorry' doesn't have a meaning to me. I wish I could be more understanding and have a bigger heart, but Im human afterall, I find these hard to attain, besides, happiness is a way of life not a destination...

My Dreams....POOF!

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Im currently sitting by myself in my living room, wanting Jannie to come up the sofa but she refuses and also im thinking of what to eat for dinner plus what beastly weather Singapore has during the monsoon season.

Deeper than what seems to be shallow and comestic, im actually thinking or tasting what most people call memories.

Year 2007 just came sweeping by without me treasuring much of it and now a brand new year begins....

Oh 2007, i can't really remember much of it, maybe because i didn't really enjoy that year, it was the most gruelling year i ever had so far. I had to face countless of problems from family issues to the many controversies i encountered in my relationship.

End of 2006, i had to sit for my A levels, something i actually wouldn't mind doing it again as well as a normal human being, im never satisfied with what i have. During that period, Jansen broke off with me over major issues, being a girl who grew SO dependent on her boyfriend and who had really weak willpower, i didn't do that well for my As. But during this period, i found out that my friends were always there for me, they made sure i had company every day and night. They never wanted me to be alone, some slept over at my place, i felt like i was a kid with many nannies. They made me realise that friends are one of the many constants one should have in life.

The beginning of 2007 was all about clubbing and more clubbing and more clubbing and of course i had work, i was working as a personal assistant in a private clinic at Gleneagles, i was a personal assistant of a distinguished Ophthalmologist. I was proud of that job, i met many ministers, doctors, professors who probably won't know who i am now if i walked up and say hi. But this job brought my communication and organising skills to a whole new level. And i am very very thankful to that Professor who gave me the opportunity to do so.

During that time frame Jansen came back to me but then i broke off with him again during Chinese New Year, reason being, i found out that i actually hated him and yes i found him disgusting. That led me to more clubbing and more drinking, which i met some flings, some i terribly terribly regret, while some i wish i didn't play and maybe a certain friendship could be attained. Soon after, Jansen wanted to come back again, for some reason, i accepted him again.

During the mid of 2007, family problems started to arise which made me lose a fraction of my motivation which gradually led me to miss and skip lessons. Truthfully, i didn't attend school for 2 whole months or maybe more, why? All i could do at home was cry as i felt so helpless when i get myself involved with adult issues as when money is involved, i have no say, i have no influence on any memeber of the family. Now i find it really hard to get back to my books, that motivation, its so difficult to grasp or maybe im just giving excuses to myself.

September 2007, Jannie came into my life. Jansen bought Jannie for me as a post birthday present, from then on, my life was tied to hers as she was only 2 months, therefore i had to sacrifice whatever time i had left for myself for her. I think i nursed her well, now she's a healthy 7 month year pup. But then i didn't have time for my friends, sometimes i do regret but looking at her ,well, it changed my perception, the joy she gave me, well its one of those things that money can't buy. Maybe because looking at her reminded me of Terry, my late Westie. Everyday i grew to love her more and more. Jannie changed Jansen in a way as well, now he doesn't wake up a peevish look anymore, maybe because Jannie kisses him and nibbles on his toes every morning. Actually before Jannie came in, i didn't know that Jansen had a loving heart for animals.

December 2007, the chapter on my family issues came to a closure, thanks to my uncle who decided to help and i really thank him for that. He flew straight down from Australia to assist the problem and he made it clear to me that im never alone. He thought me one thing though, in life, always under talk your intelligence, it is a good thing to let people under estimate you and the most important lesson he thought me was always be assertive but not aggressive. He thought me that family ties are always important and that i should always have a big heart for my parents and to forgive. Well, im trying to work on that, its not easy.

Beginning of 2008, i find myself alone as my parents left for their retirement, Jansen made it a point to stay with me overnights. I think my house has become his second home, i thank him for that as well and his mother for being understanding.

Well, 2008, i hope things take a turn for the better and i'll work for it, im scared but nonetheless i'll try and try and try even when im beaten, i'll still try...

To my constants....i thank you all for the lovely things you did for me...

And to you...thank you for your companionship and your love

My Dreams....POOF!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

I know its really early, but im actually planning for Jansen's 23rd birthday which is 20th of August. I have Plan A and Plan B but i don't know which one to choose.

Here's Plan A:

Give him his present in the morning
High tea at the Rose Veranda (Shangri-La Hotel)
Catch a movie if any or bring him on the duck tour
Dinner at either Giraffe or Aurum or My Humble House (Tung Lok Group)
Bring him to his favourite place which is OBar/Dblo for a suprise (which i have to steal his phone and get some contacts)
One night stay at The Gallery Hotel

Approximate Expenditure: $2000

Plan B:

Bring him on a holiday to one of his desired destinations, Cambodia

Approximate Expenditure: $3000, why...people usually use USD in Cambodia... sighs

Oh and of course my beloved Jannie's birthday would be at Pawtobello, well most likely it would be held there.

Approximate Expenditure: <$1000

Im going to be broke from June to August

My Dreams....POOF!

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Had to admit myself into SGH today as I was due for a day surgery, i feel really weak now and im typing real slow, why, my veins hurt...

For you (although you never read my blog, but its a good thing)

Thank you for taking a whole week off to nurse my back to health, although you have to head back to work for half days to complete your clearance form. It was really sweet of you to get those cantonese herbal soup for me although I HATE DRINKING SOUP. With your sincerity, Im actually starting to like soup. Im happy that you got what you wanted in terms of your work. Sometimes I just can't believe the things that you do for me, I admit I do have second thoughts at times, as i still do feel insecure. Nonetheless, thank you for your love and care throughout these tough times, thank you for standing by my side. I love you...

My Dreams....POOF!