TIME STILL STANDS

Sunday, December 2, 2007

I would like so side track a little. I've never been so lost, so aimless, living by a daily basis, this is just NOT me. I want my OLD me back, yet I simply can't find her. I've been wasting these months away, I need a wake up call, I need my friends, yet I can't find them. I feel like breaking down, family issues are driving me crazy, my relationship is driving me mad.

I miss the girl I used to be, a nerd during the day, a party animal at night, yet i still get my grades. Where is she? Where is that girl with the big dreams? I can't find her within me. I miss that Shopaholic, that girl who had a pattern in life. I look in the mirror and I see someone so different. Where is that girl who gets bored of town easily? Where is that girl who visits her friends when they're working? Where is she?

And then there's you!!! You actually bring yourself so low to help me? I don't want that! I rather I help myself! You ask me to TRUST you, do you know the definiton of TRUST? I don't think you know. I TRUSTED you and you proved my intuition right. Asking me to trust you again? Its suicide, you think giving up your friends, giving clubbing is ENOUGH is make up for what you did? It NOT. Even if you GIVE UP YOUR LIFE, you CAN'T turn back time! You can't change what you did. I do not what happened to you in the past and you don't know mine, so DON'T ACT LIKE YOU KNOW! Stop saying that I was born with a golden spoon! Just because I once lived in Third Ave and Orchard Rd and then back to Bukit Timah and now here, don't judge me! I am not your average rich, childish, spoilt brat! Now you made the situation worse, now she would think that you like her, SEE WHAT YOU'VE DONE! If there's ever a third party, YOU SETTLE IT! And if you don't, IM THROWING YOUR THINGS OUT OF MY HOUSE!

My Dreams....POOF!